short 'n sweet

Dear Mom,

Today is Thursday and it's my 35th birthday too. This would have been the perfect day to spend together with my children, and you. Tuesdays & Thursdays were almost always our days. I would be here, at your house, as I am now. You would be here enjoying my new baby daughter and Joshua's silliness. I would be straightening up or cleaning a little bit for you (even though it was my birthday) and you would plan to treat me to lunch at one our favorite local places like Roy's or Capri. You would have little treats and surprises to make the day special, probably some crazy cute socks and maybe some bath & body stuff or nail polish sets. 

And, as much as I'm missing you still, I am all the more grateful that I had 33 birthdays with my Mom in my life. You made each and every one of them special - even the last one when you were in your very darkest hours and days you still called to wish me a happy birthday. You were trying to be happy and upbeat for me not to worry so much about your sickness. I want to thank you for your generous and selfless spirit and for being the most beautiful and loving Mom anyone could ever want. If I am even half the amazing Mom you are then my kids are super lucky.  (I'm still trying to figure all that out).

I miss you every hour of every day, but especially on the special days that I know if you were here, would be very different for me. I cherish those memories more than anyone can imagine. I know you are still with me in spirit, and with the family, I can feel that. I know you hear me too even when I don't say it out loud. God has designed the soul like that. He's pretty awesome, too. 

As always I'm talking to you all the time. I love you, Mom. Thank you for giving me the best birthday memories any girl could ask for. Memories I can carry in my heart and share with my children too. 

Night :)

My #tbt pic I shared on facebook today.  My 2nd birthday, 1981.  A cake you made.  amazing ;)