Say Something

Dear Mom,

As my due date draws near, as I stumble upon obstacles with Joshua and David and daily life, as I anticipate the arrival of Miss Lydia, I miss you more and more {& more}...  

More than I thought I could miss anyone or anything.  Although, I know this is the deepest of my emotional pain that I have lived through in my personal experiences.  I know there are far deeper pains to be felt.  But, I can only share what I’m feeling and what I’m going through at this moment in time.

There’s a song I have been hearing on the radio.  The lyrics and music always bring me back to the last weeks of your earthly life.  I also just watched the video for the first time, it’s a beautiful portrayal.  It brings me back like this: 

{please view the video link at the bottom}

"Say Something" A Great Big World, featuring Christina Aguilera

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'll be the one, if you want me to.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
Anywhere I would've followed you.
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I will swallow my pride.
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.
And anywhere I would've followed you. Oh-oh-oh-oh
Say something, I'm giving up on you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.
Say something...