a happy moment

A Happy Moment.

I found a video the other day.  It was mostly of Joshua running around with my scarf on his head, but our voices, and part of your legs/feet, are also in the video.  We’re just laughing and carrying on with him.  It was a happy moment last November 17, 2011.  It was just one of our regular Thursday morning visits.  I have missed those so much.  It’s hard to believe it has been a month since your spirit has moved on to another life.  I know time does not exist where you are, but this past month, in some ways, has felt like an eternity on earth.  

Joshua still grabs the two Nature’s Season containers out of the bottom kitchen cabinet and shakes them, taps them together and bangs the tops.  I smile and think about how you taught him that :) shake-shake, tap-tap and banga bang!

I remember a couple of very specific times that I made you laugh, towards the end.  One was us looking at a picture of Joshua sprawled across my coffee table in his new big boy undies and I said “he has long spider legs like Daddy”… you chuckled pretty good at that one.  And, then another time I was telling you about a possible groundhog under my shed and you made some comment I can’t recall exactly, but my response back was “well, it’s better than cats!”, and you just thought that was so funny given my short history with stray cats in the neighborhood.  You told me to stop making you laugh.  I’m happy that I gave you a few chuckles and brought a couple moments of Joy to your heart, even among your darkest of days. 

I enjoyed laughing with you every time we were together before you got sick… especially with Joshua, and most especially with Dad and his antics and your interactions with each other.  I will miss laughing so hard until I cry when you and Dad would get together, and I’m sure he misses that one hundred million times more than I do.

Thinking of you today and every single moment of all of my tomorrows.